EVERYONE is getting married...at least most of the people I know. Now, having attended Concordia University for four years I would have thought that I was used to the idea of people either getting engaged or married left and right. WRONG. The reality really hit me for the first time this weekend. My good friend Phil got married this weekend and I was blessed with the privilege of being invited as well as being able to attend (I wasn't planning on being in CA this long, but it all worked out). It was so awesome to see one of my best friends go through something like that. Many of my friends have also gotten engaged recently, some to people that will work out, and others that I fear won't. At any rate, they're at least engaged. They've at least gotten to the point where they have someone to call their own. I, however, am alone right now and I fear (however irrational it may be) that this trend will continue. Personal issues seem to limit my more intimate relationships to some extent.
On top of all this, one of my "ex's" was at the wedding I attended this weekend. We are still friends, but she is engaged and, although I am happy for her that she has found someone to be with, I can't help but compare myself to her fiance or our relationship to theirs. It's as if people around me are moving on in life while I am being left in the dust. I am beginning to think that some issues of mine may be more simple to let go of than I am making them. I was at Borders today perusing the Christian section and I found a book by Max Lucado entitled "Traveling Light." It was about not going through life carrying unnecessary burdens around. I feel that I am so desperately clinging to some things that I just don't need to be carrying along. At the same time, it's all I've known and it's hard to put behind me.
Will I find someone? Will I be "alone"? Will the rest of the world continue to pass me by while I cling to the past and what's familiar? These are questions that I don't expect answers to, at least not immediately. Just ponderings that hang out in my mind.
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You will find that special someone. And when you do, everyone will prostrate in front of you and yell, "All hail the power and might of Jimmy!" at your wedding. ^_^
Ok, I couldn't edit the previous comment, so I had to add a new one...sorry.
So, when you get married, this would be most entertaining. ^_^
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aD31i9SKw80
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