Sunrise

So, I've done some thinking today...or rather this evening. Life right now seems to be in shambles and very uncertain. It's to the point where I'm fighting off depression and uncharacteristic bouts of anger that have nothing to do with anything except the underlying problem of my "limbo status" in life. Seriously, I'm not an angry person (bitter, maybe), but I yelled at NOTHING in the car today on my way to a rehearsal. If you know anything about me you'll be aware that Nichole Nordeman is my favorite Christian singer/songwriter. She has a song called "Sunrise" that recently hit home with my soul. I got to thinking: "Maybe life's uncertainties at this point are just a 'midnight' that I'm going through. Maybe Jesus is giving me this period of darkness so that I may later appreciate more fully a sense of contentedness and of being settled." Just a thought. Here's the lyrics.

"Sunrise" by Nichole Nordeman; from the album "Recollection: Greatest Hits"

If I had the chance
To go back again
Take a different road, bear a lighter load
Tell an easy story

I would walk away
With my yesterdays
And I would not trade what is broken for beauty only

Every valley
Every bitter chill
Made me ready to climb back up the hill And find that…

(Chorus)
You are sunrise
You are blue skies
How would I know the morning
If I knew not midnight?

You’re my horizon
You’re the light of a new dawn
So thank you, thank you
That after the long night, you are sunrise

There’s a moment when
Faith caves in
There’s a time when every soul is certain God is gone

But every shadow is evidence of sun
And every tomorrow holds out hope for us
For every one of us

(Chorus)

You alone will shine
You alone can resurrect this heart of mine

(Chorus)

You are sunrise

God, help me...